Which for anyone who knows me, must surely be a first.
I LOVE words.
I love working out their origins, the way they look on paper; their shapes and rhythms. And I love the way they can have multiple meanings, depending on context, dependant on the company, the glint in an eye, the emphasis on a syllable, the quickness of response, the back and forth.
Words can bind or divide with such ease and speed they become almost the most powerful tool available to us mere mortals.
But I digress –
words, they confuse, confound and cause all sorts of meanderings.
Like our meander into Glenorchy Back Country, South Island, New Zealand.
And for those who don’t know where New Zealand is, the bottom of the planet, almost in the Pacific Ocean. I think God created the world from the top and as he moved down, his artistry became more and more breathtaking; his masterpiece complete at Glenorchy.
Don’t click on the blue map – nothing will happen. Just an overview of where ‘we are’This is the area we rode in 🙂
And that’s the point – this trip was SO amazing,
So breathtakingly beautiful.
So filled with laughter and energy and love and caring and support that
WORDS FAIL ME!!!!!
No really, they do.
From our first meeting for a drink, which ended up including a dinner, we knew we were in a special place, where like minded people understood the words spoken, the words unspoken, the meanings behind them. People who immediately saw the laughter in an eye, or the nervous hesitation in the curve of a mouth.
Which for anyone who knows me, must surely be a first.
I LOVE words.
I love working out their origins, the way they look on paper; their shapes and rhythms. And I love the way they can have multiple meanings, depending on context, dependent on the company, the glint in an eye, the emphasis on a syllable, the quickness of response, the back and forth.
Words can bind or divide with such ease and speed they become almost the most powerful tool available to us mere mortals.
But I digress –
words, they confuse, confound and cause all sorts of meanderings.
Like our meander into Glenorchy Back Country, South Island, New Zealand.
Don’t click on the blue map – nothing will happen. Just an overview of where ‘we are’This is the area we rode in 🙂
And for those who don’t know where New Zealand is, the bottom of the planet, almost in the Pacific Ocean. I think God created the world from the top and as he moved down, his artistry became more and more breathtaking; his masterpiece complete at Glenorchy.
And that’s the point – this trip was SO amazing,
So breathtakingly beautiful.
So filled with laughter and energy and love and caring and support that
WORDS FAIL ME!!!!!
Bijmin – no words 🙂
No really, they do.
From our first meeting for a drink, which ended up including a dinner, we knew we were in a special place, where like minded people understood the words spoken, the words unspoken, the meanings behind them.
People who immediately saw the laughter in an eye, or the nervous hesitation in the curve of a mouth.
We knew, without any hesitation that we were heading for a special 5 days and we were right.
Although perhaps heading wasn’t quite the right word, try meandering.
As some of us did on the way home via a fairy light boat or two (see blog All grown up? Really?) but to bed we went, finally.
Surprisingly, despite creaky heads for some, we were all up and ready to go as planned, bright and early referring to the day and time, not necessarily the people. See what I mean about words ?
Queenstown early morningLake Wakatipu – 75km long, 400m deepThe crew the morning after that meandering night 🙂
And that was the beginning of a Real world:
no internet, no radio, no news, Facebook:
sometimes not even lights.
But again, words – there were lights, just not the ones we normally think of when using the word.
The sky was alive with lights, THOUSANDS of stars, breathtaking, moving, shimmering, glimmering, glowing, even flowing….. just endless stars that kept us spellbound.
A walk in the dark one night, clambering down the side of a cliff in total darkness trusting Bijmin our leader, lead us to more lights.
At first we thought they were stars, but they were not.
They were glow worms – THOUSANDS of them, hanging under a huge cave like boulder across the river, which in the dark was invisible to us, and creating a second heaven of starlight.
We gawked, silenced and humbled by the enormity and power of our universe and thought how easily we could have missed it except we dared to brave the dark and damp.
We rode around mountains, seeing glaciers, snow, water as blue as the sky, and then as transparent as glass so that you couldn’t be sure what was reflection and what was mountain.
Sunrise from our campNo wordsThat waterThat grassBreathe takingWhichever way youlooked, left youspeechless…no wordsPistol gazing at the world…..No words….the Dart River… braided, beautiful, breathtaking….anyone for a wedding?the beauty of silence – created by the beauty around us… no words…The crewThat’s Pistol again – and a VIEW – no words 🙂Cabbage trees, snow, mountains, rivers, air as clear as….. no words 🙂
We rode through forests.
With Beech trees as tall as cathedrals, moss and lichen dripping,
streams and waterfalls a constant surprise.
At times the forest was so silent we felt like the first and only people in the world.
At other times it was so full of bird sounds it made me laugh for joy.
The forests were filled with dreams.
Thoughts of dinosaurs, ogres, goblins, Bilbo, Gandalf, Frodo.
You name it, they were there.
Silent, watching us feeling them.
sometimes steep, ……Both ways……silence….that up…… andand down feeling….No words…. but heaps of smiles….That Forest….That Forest….
The waterfalls, the walks, the views –
No Words….
None of us could stop smiling for the sheer joy of being aliveIn a world so captivatingOn top of the worldNo words….. just loveThe look of love – Needs no wordsMy ‘partner in crime’ looked always like the cat who had found ALL the cream…..:-)
We scrambled up and down, feeling, smelling, sensing the forest
and took those candid shots!So much water – everywhere…..
We camped in cold, clear places and warm snug places.
We shared our meals with our beloved horses.
We brushed our teeth in public, and even had a bath with a view.
Our camp – frosted grass, slippery decks, cold feet and hands but warm smiles and laughter to make our stomachs ache….and then the sun reached us……and thawed our frozen chairsDrinks were shared, with all sundry 🙂
that’s mine…
Making lunch was always such an adventure
Lunches a fun affair….
What about my breakfast please…..?At least someone knew where we were, or at least where we were going to be :“with a little help from my friendsSome conversations were private….
Brushing teeth was an adventure 🙂
and After 🙂
so warm and welcoming
What remained after a horrific fire 😦
no words – just a new dayAs old as time itself……
where are you?
We lunched along river banks and on grass hills, we talked, we laughed, we giggled, we lay in the sun, we rode bare back, we swam our horses in glacial pools.
Returning from my first ever swim, bareback…..
My first ever bare back ride – the face says it all 🙂The 3 Musketeers before we plunged into the icy glacial water 🙂 🙂 🙂Fun and….and games in the most beautiful country on earth….
We cantered, we jumped, we fell (or at least I did – twice in the first hour of our ride!!!!) we laughed again and shared- stories, drinks, food, fears, loves, joys, life with a capital L
We felt like children on a school camp, in the moment, thrilling to the joy of being alive, overwhelmed by the beauty of our surroundings, humbled by the generosity of spirit shown by our horses, stripped to our essence camping together and always laughing and playing.
Our last dinner together
Our little group, from worlds as far apart as Tuscon Arizona, New Hampshire, South Africa, Nebraska, California, Sydney, Noosa, Melbourne were united, bonded forever by this experience.
Bonded by a thread as smooth as silk and as solid as chainmail.
Linked through our connection to our horses.
Joined by an experience that cannot be put into words and that cannot be replicated, nor understood except by those of us who were so fortunate to have experienced these remarkable animals, so patient, so responsive, so willing, so kind, so powerful in a country of such extravagant beauty.
No words.
I left a part of my soul with Rusty my beautiful horse; Glenorchy Back Country and my new friends….
Photos are thanks to ‘the crew’ – I can claim No credit for them – very grateful team
Okay, so I’lll admit there was a time when I indulged in a few holiday romances, but that was many years ago.
Now I am older and wiser and a whole lot more cautious.
After all, the broken heart following such affairs is deterrent enough for me not to venture into those waters again.
So I approached this relationship with grown up attitudes. We would be together for 5 days, we would enjoy the time we had together and go our separate ways with no strings attached, no expectations and therefore, no pain. Nothing could be simpler.
And so it was that we danced around each other, assessing how far we could push ourselves and each other.
We tested which buttons would produce a joy of such magnitude I cannot begin to describe it, and which buttons were clearly going to be a no-no with me left deflated and hanging on the ground, foolish and stunned by the speed of the whole chain of events!!!!
Still I persevered, thinking the whole thing would be so worth it for 5 days. And I believe he did as well as he stuck by me – faithfully and quietly. Never looking elsewhere, always waiting for me to join him.
But he was not boring; not submissive, quick to challenge me and turn a ho hum moment into an adventure. There were times when he was confronting, prodding and dare I say it, even went so far as to goad me into losing my ‘cool’.
It was at moments like these that the encouragement and support of my girl friends kept me ‘in the game’ so to speak and made it all worthwhile.
And then it was all over and I had to leave.
I had been preparing myself for this moment from day one, but still, it was SO much harder than I had expected it to be.
A long kiss, and I walked away.
But no, not too far.
I came back for another cuddle and a whisper and he gave me a kind, soft, lingering nuzzle which left me oh so warm and fuzzy.
I was ready to leave him.
It was after all, just a holiday romance.
I stalked him the day after I left to find that he was happy, content, eating well and showing little sign of distress.
Was I relieved?
Perhaps.
Just a little.
But hurt too, did it really mean so little to him,
this holiday romance?
At home again with a slow heart I did the washing, hung it up to dry
and there it was!!!!!!!!
He had not just walked away casually without a backward glance.
He had left me a locket of his beautiful hair.
Well perhaps not quite a locket.
Rather a whole lot of auburn, russet short hairs.
But still a secret parting gift to remember our precious time together,
those stolen moments when we swam unhindered,
bare backed, not even socks or shoes;
in a delicious spine tingling icy glacial pool with no one around
(well almost)
.
They were there, clinging to my leggings – the leggings I wore on that special ‘bare back’ day.
Even After the washing machine had done it’s work.
Clearly, I had meant something to him, since he wove them so firmly into the cloth of my, was going to say soul,
but really just my pants and jackets.
Still, a gift from him to me.
So Just Perhaps, this wasn’t merely a holiday romance,
but a whole lot more.
The Big question now is,
do I live with ‘him’ around me for a little longer,
or do I use the band aid approach to purge all memory